November 4, 2015

full of happy trees

The tiredness brings tears to my eyes. Just a couple good sleeps and I'll be okay, I think. These last couple months of the year are hard for many because they carry the weight of all the months before, and have less light to find the rest of the way out. 

Six times I've driven us up to Seattle since January, seven before the year is over, with even more specialists to see. It's par for the course by now, so many years of this. But I can feel the bitterness settling in and I hate it. I hate that we have to deal with this and hate that I legitimately have something to hate. 

Everything else is mostly good, there's always a bright side. Even those eight-hour drives... this last one was breathtaking- the colors, the rivers, the mountains - it was like we were inside a living Bob Ross painting full of happy trees. We have no clue where we're going to live, still. But there's no point in stressing about it today. That's pretty much a daily reminder to myself.

We got through another month of school, soccer, and everything that happens in between. Family came to visit, Halloween was magical, and I was glad we got to spend it in Bandon. 

Poison Ivy & Harry Potter
Poison Ivy and her pal Harry Potter aka Jack.

September 28, 2015

the window

Ivy & Aunt Lois, Port Orford

It's never a good sign when your morning begins with a bird hitting the window. Well, I don't know for sure that it's not a good sign, I haven't looked up the meaning of it or anything, but it didn't seem like the best way to wake up and start the week. The bird didn't make it.

Now it's night and an owl is hooting right outside. I wonder if he knows. I did look up owl sounds to find that it's probably a Great Horned Owl.

Well, it's the fourth week of school and homework has kicked in, as well as tap, ballet, and soccer. The older they are, the more work they get... more papers, things to keep track of...  it feels like a lot. We are getting our routine down, though, and mornings are still going pretty great. Now we're perfecting the after-school dealio. I look forward to hearing the contents of their day tumble out as we drive to pick up the next kid, and then home. With each day I'm reminded that their lives are getting bigger without me.

I freely admit that my favorite days are when we can just come home and stay home and there are no tights or shin guards involved. Bonus if I already know what I'm making for dinner.

We're getting there. I actually appreciate the schedule and structure because I just need someone to tell us where to be. I can do that much.

Texas was a rascal, Aunt Lois loved Cherokee so much she went back to ride him again!

We did so much in the last two weeks that I can't believe it. Having family here is always so special and this time around we didn't waste one moment together. Jeff was off all that time, too, so there's been much to adjust to now that everyone's gone.

We visited low tide, saw seals, saw whales, ate at all our favorite eats in Old Town, we lost a dear pet (my sweet Pepper, the gerbil, the closest to a spirit animal I've ever known aside from my childhood pet cat Morris), we got two new pets (Snowflake and Hazel, the goofiest gerbils ever), we went horseback riding!

Soccer games start this weekend, it's going to be October!, and at some point we're going to have to move. I am loving and giving thanks for every last moment I get to spend with the ocean out my window.

Aunt Lois & Cherokee

September 15, 2015

She is Seven


Seven seems big. I have been kind of sad about it, but not a bad sad, just a little sweet melancholy mixed with mostly a lot of happy. Seven years of Christmas morning every day with her, such a gift.

Cranberry Festival 2015

Ivy and Autumn

Zebra butterfly sea star, Port of Bandon 2015 Boardwalk Show

Ivy had the ultimate birthday weekend celebration. The Cranberry court on Friday night, riding with the newly crowned queen in the parade on Saturday morning, getting an honor for her artwork on the boardwalk. She had a friend party on Sunday- it was a blast. There were presents and candles and cupcakes (and two cakes today!) She starts dance and soccer this week, and family is arriving tonight for a visit! Life is good!

7th birthday
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