January 7, 2016

Closing Time

The house is getting listed again. We were on a break for a bit but it's time. New year, new plan. It's gotta work. Otherwise I'm more convinced this town has a powerful force that refuses to let us leave. Which could possibly be more truth than science fiction.

We all seem to have more oomph in our step and are powering through closets and under beds with motivation. The kids decided to "organize" their closets so now Gray is trying to convince me that his two sizes too small fleece hoodie fits just fine, all zipped up and squashing his head. And of course organizing to them is pulling absolutely everything out of the closet and onto the floor and leaving it there while they play with long forgotten Nerf guns and old Halloween masks.

I think this time it's going to work, I dare hope the house sells quickly. We still don't really know where we'll go from here - a rental? Something that fits us all and is in the school district I want? We're a little sore about buying another house, but who knows what's next. Blind or open-eyed, I don't think it matters in the end.

January 2, 2016

we've read the book and you come out on top

More Joseph today. It came to me, as I was loading the dishwasher and worrying about not cultivating my passion, as Ivy was seated at the counter with my laptop and another viewing of Joseph on YouTube, that I am doing good work. I'm growing a child to love and know my passion. And I might still get there myself.

I almost wrote that I still have time, but I've been thinking about that a lot. Do we really? No one can know. My hope is that when time does run out, for anyone, that they did get to a moment in their life of realization and clarity. Something that makes them feel like it was worth it. I think about this a bit too much lately and wish I didn't. So instead I'm trying to think and do more in the right now, and hopefully bring the kids along with me, and in doing so making it worth it for all of us.

This week I accomplished a few tasks I've been putting off for an unacceptable amount of time. Today I did one more thing. I don't know what has caused my suddenly ambitious actions, but I'm making the most of it while supplies last.

January 1, 2016

The first of many.

It was a great start to the year. Ivy and I have exhausted our current musical soundtracks of Hamilton, Annie, Phantom, & Into the Woods and then I realized I had never introduced her to Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat... what a throwback. I still remember every note in the chorus. She made minestrone soup by my instruction, chopping all the veggies and adding all the ingredients herself. She also discovered that she absolutely loves Billie Holiday's name and voice, as well as any song on Cole Porter radio on Pandora. These small things make me so happy, and feel like we are on course after all.