September 9, 2012

♥ Hearts ♥

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I just can not get over the sky. I would have never thought to put my request in, that where we move to have such an incredible view of, well, above. But there it is.

I went to a church today and I knew within minutes that it would not be our church, but I stayed to be polite and give it more chances just in case. I wanted it to be, but it's not. It's so not. And I wonder why was I made to be so discerning if it only makes it that much harder.

Ivy has it too, sometimes I think she couldn't be more like me. In the car she asked how the guy got way up in the sky. We were sitting in construction traffic at the time and I strained to see him, on a truck or a pole but he must have been out of my line of vision and I said what guy? and she said the guy who paints it blue everyday and that was when I knew she meant the actual sky. I could have told her so many things, but I decided to be quiet, she tells better stories.

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She's lonely, too. She wants a friend, at that stage where she just wants to play with someone her age, someone like her. We went for a walk around the neighborhood to see if we could find a girl but all we found were baby pine cones and acorns, some big and some little and some that lost their hats in the fall. On the whole long walk only two cars passed us, and we never found any other kids. A few yards already had raked piles of dark brown leaves, and it smelled like October and the house I babysat at when I was in middle school.




15 comments:

  1. She is precious. I hope you find a church home and friends for all... you included. Meanwhile, enjoy that sky. xo

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  2. I love the Heart Matching Game. When I find a friend whose heart matches, I'm grateful. But when I find a piece of my kid's heart that matches mine? I'm overcome.

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    1. Oh! I love this! Heart Matching. I need some of that right now.

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  3. I'm sure the right church is out there waiting with open arms..and that little playmate for Ivy too!

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  4. Soon. You'll find friends soon. And friends sometimes leave, but new ones will come. We are in the waiting stage right now, a year after Corinne's best friend moved and her other best buddies are suddenly too old for her. It's.... tricky.

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  5. Just keep praying and looking a church home is there, I know it. And meet up.com may be a good way to find some friends for Ivy. When we were new here I signed up for a group and wow it was such a good decision. Some of the kids best friends and mine are families we met through that group.

    Hang in there. Moving is hard but so great too.

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  6. ...the simplicity and rawness of your writing always gets me (you know how to squish that 'mama' button in my heart). I just realized it tonight - you're writing style reminds me of Anne Lamott (and I LOVE her!).
    Ivy is precious - friends will find her easily.
    (I once asked my mama if people often touched the 'sides of the sky'... you know, the part of the blue that comes down and attaches to the earth, as if we were under a blue umbrella!). ;o)
    mel
    needle and nest design

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  8. Finding the right church is always the hardest. I wish you well in your search.

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  9. It's hard to watch your children be unhappy. And know there's really nothing you can truly do about it.

    I hope she finds joy in her brothers (when they are around) and in her family as she waits for a friend!

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  10. I wish we lived down the street from you. K would SO love to be Ivy's friend. :)

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  11. I love everything you write. Always learning from you, luv. And the whole discernment thing, yeah, me, too. Mystics and diviners in another life perhaps.

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  12. I hope your dream church is waiting for you right now. Blessings to you on your journey. I'm sure a close friend for Ivy is out there, too. :)

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