August 23, 2011

Bittersweet Symphony On My Little Finger Violin

Jeff took the kids for a walk tonight so I could "clean up the kitchen" aw gee thanks but I admit it was nice to crank up my iPod and not trip over little people while I put away all our foodstuffs and washed dishes. And then I glanced at Gray's lunchbox and had time to put Veggie Straws in little baggies for the week and resolved to be all organized about packing lunches as much as possible ahead of time so I'm not rushed every morning this year and also I was ignoring any and all feelings that tried to bubble up from the presence of said lunchbox.

He starts school in the morning, like all day. Like, what is he going to be doing all day? That is a lot of learning, to go from home all the time to school. I know that I know that it's the right thing for him, it's just so weird!

I'm also a little skeeved about what he might say to his teachers. Of all my kids, he's the one that tells the stories that embarrass worry me the most. Is it too late to back out now. My "baby" starts school tomorrow and I don't know if I am ready for this.

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  1. Oh, Steph. I know. I'm a bit of a mess with Eli starting. I was totally ready for Owen to start, but this little guy is another story. And yeah, like Gray - *he's* ready. I'm just not. ;)

    xoxo good luck, mama. hug him hard and soak him in.

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  2. He will love it. And he will win the hearts of all the teachers the moment he walks in. Heck, I haven't even met him in real life and he already has me wrapped around his little finger!

    (And you? You will be okay. But, if you're like me, you'll be every-the-slightest melancholy until he's back at home with you. I'm always looking for them, listening for them...even when I know they aren't here.)

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  3. Every milestone is both exciting and scary. What are we supposed to do with those contradictory feelings? I think you'll be fine though. You might shed a few tears but that's ok. You're letting your little baby bird take his first tentative steps out of the nest. What mother would't be a little apprehensive about that? You'll be right there waiting when he gets back. :-)

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  4. I hope he has a wonderful first day of school. You will be a brave Mama, and if you do shed some tears, it's ok. Just wait until he can't see you. :)

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  5. My baby brother started his senior year of high school. I have never been more freaked out. I still picture him as he was at 4.

    As for Gray's stories, I wouldn't worry too much. His teachers will learn he has an interesting take on things, and be amused. At least we are. I know G loves hearing what silly/crazy thing Gray has said!

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  6. School! My youngest boy is going off to kindergarten soon and oh the emotions I have! He is not my talker though, baby girl is going to be the one I am going to have watch for. ;)

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  7. I totally know how you feel...my little guy starts this year as well and I am sooo not ready! Good luck hope all goes well!

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  8. Oh I hear you. Amelia started yesterday and when I asked her what she did all day all she could remember was music lunch and recess. She didn't play with anyone at recess (which breaks my heart) and loves her teacher. But, what did she do all day? Was she ok with so much structure? I know it is the right choice for our family, but that doesn't make it any easier.
    Hoping that Gray has a FABULOUS day today and that Mama and Ivy have a fun day too.

    Btw, Libby was so sad when Amelia went to school and didn't come home to play with her, that I took her to get a donut. After we were done she said, "Mama, donuts make my feelings feel better". Oh I know baby, I know ;)

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  9. My oldest 2 started school so close to each other, I'm used to it now. But when Teyla (now 3) starts school? That will be the beginning of the final verse. It will damage my heart, I am sure.

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  10. Many teachers make an agreement with parents that they will only believe half of what the child says about if the parents will only believe half of what the child says about school.

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  11. If you think sending them to kindergarten, wait until they start middle school. That was hard because it feels like they are going into uncharted territory. Whatever you do, stay in contact with the teachers. Volunteer in the classroom or the school. The more you're there the teachers get to know you, your kids know you'll always know what they are doing, and you will know what's going on at school. Even volunteer when they go to middle school.

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  12. I can't imagine my kids going off to kindergarten! Best of luck! At the school where I taught, the librarian always hosted a "Boo-hoo Breakfast" for the kindergarten parents. It served as a nice opportunity for parents to bond together over this milestone. I hope you can find some good friends to share coffee with!

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  13. Oh you are so brave, your little guy will be fine... and little Ivy should keep you out of mischief!!! I can't wait to hear what he has to say about school... really, can't wait, I think it is going to be very interesting!!! Lots of love and hang in there...

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  14. Hailey's first "full" day was today. In the 2 hrs we were there yesterday, for Kindergarten round-up, I was told that she is "hilarious" and told "stories". I have no idea what stories she told but...I guess when I get weird looks, that's why. ;)

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