January 14, 2011

message in a bottle

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I used to wish for a time machine. Or more like a distance teleporter... a secret door you could walk through and be anywhere you wanted to be in the world. I would close my eyes tight and hope to be with family that lived down south, and some days the mountains, yesterday with a far-away friend.

Who am I kidding I still search for that secret door and can't believe I haven't found it yet. 

I have a hard time understanding why distance even has to exist. The heart fonder? But also weaker.

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There's this photo of my mom and me at this age standing in the snow just like that.

Just like that.

And I wonder how many of my dreams and wishes were-

and are-

really messages

to my future self.


psst- more memories and thoughts on time found here, published recently at Story Bleed Magazine.

26 comments:

  1. How ironic that I watched the movie "message in a bottle" last night for the first time. Great post!

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  2. love that photo of Ivy and the heart. I can't believe how big she is getting.

    Congrats on getting published in Story Bleed, that is awesome!

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  3. oh gosh, I love this. and goodness that girl is so cute!!

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  4. Her little pants are TOO much! Love them. Oh my goodness.

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  5. What a beautiful smile she has!

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  6. As a kid, I used to shut my eyes real tight and imagine myself somewhere else or as someone else. I thought when I opened my eyes, I'd be where or who I imagined.

    Silly. But I think I still do that sometimes...

    And I *love* that picture of Ivy!

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  7. That's such an amazing picture.

    And if you find the door, please share, because there are days when I feel like it would be the best option.

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  8. Mmm, I think we all need that door sometimes.. for sure <3

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  9. I would love a door. One from here (Germany), to sweet home, Alabama. My world would be more perfect.

    I've had deja vu moments before. Not the silly weird ones, but ones where I know that I've dreamt the moment before. That I've seen the scene before me, that I've lived it before, that I've stood in that exact moment... And every few years when it happens, I realize that I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be.

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  10. Would you look at that sweet babe in the snow!!! I just love it!!!

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  11. Ivy can't be that big already. My word!

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  12. Ivy's pants are soooo cute!!! and her pig tails...... Oh I can't wait until my little girl has enough hair for pig tails!!!

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  13. She is delightful!

    PS when you find that door would you let me know? (and if I find it first I'll send you a shout out).

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  14. oh I think this all the time, especially since my BFF is 5 hours away from me. :(

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  15. ooh, yes. i think they are.

    you are you and you were you and you will be you. and you (you steph, not you in general!) and those wishes are special and good.

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  16. Lovely. So many things I thought I wanted (and want) manifest themselves in surprising, different and totally fulfilling ways - even when the result is not at all what I thought I wanted, it really is!

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  17. I want a teleporter. And I wanted one even more when I had to commute to work every day. How much easier would it be to just ZAP!, show up at your desk?

    So much easier.

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  18. Wow, that girl is truly gorgeous and her spirit even more so.

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  19. so true. it feels kind of circular all of it...the past present future are all wrapped up into one sometimes it feels like that....

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  20. I cannot WAIT until K can have ponytails like that! Love that photo for SO many reasons...

    And can you invent that distance thing, please??

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  21. Ivy is getting SO big!! (and beautiful!)

    I love that last picture of her.

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  22. Your writing brings a sort of quiet hush to my heart. Thank you for that.

    Also - these pictures are priceless. So creative. I love Ivy's hair in pigtails - and her outfits are ALWAYS so stylish.

    stephanie@metropolitanmama.net

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  23. you have such a sweet poetic style to your writing... i love it... when you find that door let me know would you ;) ?!

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