January 8, 2011

Humbly Yours

 

This morning I awoke pressed tightly between one Gray and one Ivy, both warm and sleeping, once members of my body, now not, but close enough. And I tried to take a photo with my phone and it just didn't come out. 

But it's me, it's the start of a surprising feeling inside me to no longer say my age but instead a mumbled thirtycoughsomecoughthing. I never knew this about myself.

Today I found that there is a lot I don't know about myself, and what a wonderful birthday present, because I have a whole life to get acquainted. On a drive, in the snow, today is my new year's day.

I drove away and I drove to. And I hope over the next few days that I can make friends with the very words that will free me from the novel that is in my head just waiting to be breathed into the air 

again.

A gift, something that I realized today- when I discovered I had something all wrong... which made every thing all right, and in my favor 

all

this

time.

It's been a wondrous day of turning thirtycoughsomecoughthing. God hasn't given up on me, and - in the words of a dear dear friend- He wasn't content to have a world without me.

clarity

And you. 

I'm ordinary and shabby and so beyond touched at all your kindness and well wishes. I can feel it I can see it in the glitter that came dressed to my party as new life new snow this day.

49 comments:

  1. I love you so much. Happiest of days for you my dearest.

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  2. You're a treasure Steph! Happy Happy Birthday!

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  3. And many more! Happy Birthday :-)

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  4. Happy Birthday to an excellent writer

    Jenn

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  5. Happy Happy Birthday! I hope you had a wonderful day and a very blessed year!

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  6. Happy birthday steph! Hope you have had a fantastic day. You inspire me to be more creative, to think harder, to marvel and wonder and awe at the world God made. And, your honesty makes me a better person, better wife, better mom.

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  7. Remember when you would say you were 5 and a half? That stops about age 21. Now you're at 30 something but never 30 and a half, but to me 34 is incredibly young yet. It is all in perspective. And also remember getting older beats the alternative. So enjoy the day on the day of the week you were born. Happy Birthday!

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  8. Happy Birthday Steph!!! Wishing you the best on this day and all year! :)

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  9. wow. beautifully written. Isn't God's grace such an amazing thing. Many blessings.

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  10. Happy Birthday! Hope it's been a wonderful day, a wonderful year. :) Blessings!

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  11. Happy Birthday to a fellow Capricorn and beautiful person! I, too, turn thirtymumblemumblecough in a few days, and your words inspire me so much. Thank you. . .sending hugs!

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  12. happy birthday! hope your day was great :)

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  13. Happy Birthday from another recently turned coughthirtycoughsomething. ;)

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  14. You are anything but ordinary and shabby. But I know what you mean.

    Happy Birthday, gorgeous. :)

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  15. Happy Birthday friend... I wish you many many more nights snuggled between your sweet sleeping children!!! I hope your year is just brilliant!!!
    A lot of old ladies read your blog!!! I am only nnnnnn-ahem-ineteen after all!!! And how I had eight kids by the time I turned nineteen will be an eternal source of mystery to my children!!!

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  16. Happy Birthday to you...and me.
    It's a beautiful day!

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  17. Wishing you the happiest of birthdays, I think you are just lovely.

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  18. Lots of happy birthday wishes for youuuuuuuuuuu!

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  19. Welcome to this grandest of decades! May it be full of sweet things.

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  20. Happiest of birthdays to you! Beginning-of-January birthdays are really the best. At least, I've always liked my B-o-J birthday. I hope you were blessed today, because you are a blessing to so many.

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  21. Happy Birthday, Steph. A lot.

    You inspire and I'm really glad you're here and so I'm really glad that God was not content to NOT make a you.

    xoxo

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  22. BEAUTIFUL.
    Happy Birthday, Beautiful You!

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  23. Happy Birthday to you! *many blessings to you in your new year*

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  24. Happy birthday. Why did I think your birthday was in the fall? No idea! Love and hugs and birthday spankings. heeeee!

    Nell

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  25. happy birthday! and seriously..."once members of my body, now not, but close enough" needs to be on a hallmark or something. that is beautiful :)

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  26. Happy, HAPPY birthday!! You are such a special person... This world is blessed to have you! :)

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  27. A very, VERY Happy Birthday to one of the most honest, inspiring, real, loving people I've never met. : )

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  28. Happy thirtycoughsomething birthday Stephanie. I have a feeling it's going to be your best year yet!

    Make it so. :)

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  29. Happy, happy birthday!

    I hope it was a great one. :)

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  30. Happy birthday, sweetie!

    (I've always been excited about birthdays and happy to age gracefully... but suddenly this year, I'm noticing the wrinkles that don't leave my forehead quite as quickly as they used to... and not feeling *quite* so graceful about it anymore. Aren't we silly?)

    (Oh, and then there's the 70-something woman who was telling me about visiting an 80-year-old acquaintance who was jealous of her youth and vitality!)

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  31. Happy birthday, beautiful lady! You are such a blessing on this blog of yours and I pray that you are incredibly blessed this year!

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  32. Beautiful! So glad I got to share in the celebration of the day and more to come! Love you, mom

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  33. You make thirtycoughsomecoughthing beautiful.

    Happy birthday precious.

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  34. Happy Birthday Beautiful! :-)

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  35. Happy Birthday. No better way to start the day & your year than in the midst of your little family.

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  36. awww...what a pretty Birthday post! Happy happy Birth Day to you, may your year bring all the words in your head into real space and all the rest you wish too!

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  37. Happy (belated) Birthday!

    Hope your day was filled with wonderful.

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  38. Happy, happy birthday from a fellow thirtycoughsomecoughthing. :) What great introspection and thought you give your life. That is a true gift.

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  39. happy belated birthday! i hope you have the best year yet!

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  40. This post is so beautiful.
    But you are even moreso.
    (You knew that, didn't you?:-))

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  41. I hope your birthday was as wonderful as you are Steph. xo

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  42. Merriest and joyfullest of birthdays to you!

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  43. I do dearly enjoy your words, the last two years I've known you, you and your three boys and your one girl.

    My sister, i'm late. I hope it was happy.

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  44. Feliz CumpleaƱos!!!

    <3 Marcela

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  45. What a beautiful sentiment, Steph.

    I wish you the happiest of years - full of love and laughter and dreams that come true.

    P.S. I wake up almost every single morning squashed between my two girls.

    stephanie@metropolitanmama.net

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