August 2, 2010

Take off one thing that you don't need.

You know that party game where everyone sits in a circle and puts a paper bag over their head and the host says, "Ok, now take off one thing you don't need." And some people take off a shoe, or their watch, and most everyone else takes off THE PAPER BAG?

I've been feeling heavy on the insides thinking about stuff like that. All syrup and molasses and I can hardly keep my chin up. Some people in my life have grudges for paper bags.

I just don't get why they can't chuck the dang thing off.

And I confess I have my own stack of bags- burdens, worries, unreasonable expectations, insecurity, guilt.

And of course I'm crunchy and stuff so all mine are the re-usable kind of bags and so I use them over and over and over again.


I hate that I can be consumed by this stuff <-- stuff that always points the compass toward myself (woe is me, life is so unfair, blah blah selfish blah) instead of where my focus should be. It's shameful really. And I am so ashamed.

We're all sitting around here with bags on our heads. Why can't we just take them off.

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Making chocolate chip cookies on a whim

Completely unrelated photo, but it makes me happy, and, I'm trying to fill up on that. Not to avoid the issues, or be in denial of areas I desperately must work on, but happy little things (life inspired) are just some of the best reminders for me to be grateful. And I so am.


23 comments:

  1. love you, steph. i'm proud of you. we DO all need to chuck those dang bags off. and if we can include ourselves in that need? well, that shows that you're in a good place.

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  2. If you're feeling all syrup and molasses, then perhaps it's time to make pancakes. Silly shapes preferred!

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  3. I sometimes feel the exact same way about things in my life. I wonder why I can get drug into the sorrow of my brother's illness and crime, instead of focusing on the fact that at least I still have him.

    Or that my mother chose to try and leave us, twice {!} and go be with God. Yes, it was painful and horrible but she is still here with us.

    I do tend to live more on the positive side of life, thinking about the good and enjoying other people and loving other people more than myself, but I have that side of me that can get drug into the muck of life... the muck of me.

    And for what it's worth, I think you're one of the most genuine and sincere and GIVING people I know online.

    I appreciate your honesty and openness. Your realness and rawness, too.

    You're beautiful.

    Nell

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  4. always appreciate your illustrated word usage.

    1 Cor 3:18
    "And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord's glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit."

    Unveiled--no paper [or reusable] bag just looking at HIM not ourselves.

    The world--says "look inward" to find peace. looking at the mirror or inward never did any of us any good, because we don't make ourselves better--opposite actually. as you said.

    Process--being transformed everyday from glory to glory.

    Source--comes from Him. He helps us look at Him. Because looking at him is what makes us like him. Looking at us is what makes us more like us...empty, down, lonely, selfish, not enough, scared, the list goes on.

    I heard someone once say they knew people who like to decorate their pit. Thanks for reminding us all to take the bag off our head and look at him.

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  5. I know exactly what you're saying and I'd say 90% of people live their lives that way. I think we choose to do it because once we rid ourselves of the "stuff" that preoccupies us and our conscious selves that all we'll be left with is who we really are, laid bare... to everyone, but mainly to ourselves and I don't know about other people, but facing ME and who I AM instead of dealing with the "busy stuff"? It terrifies me.

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  6. I love the metaphor, my friend. And I love that you speak it loud and clear. And poetically. :)

    xo e.

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  7. I had to giggle about the reusable bags...I feel the same way! Why don't we allow ourselves to lift our burdens off? Hoping better days come your way.

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  8. I love that you reuse your bags on your head. That made me giggle. Thank God, because this was just too deep for my sleep deprived state.

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  9. One of the great things about having children is that you are forced to keep going even when you get all caught up in your head. They are also good at giving perspective. One look at my children when I'm lost in "why me's" and I'm reminded of two very important reasons why life is good. Yin & Yang...a constant thing.

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  10. Just remember that those people who have issues with bags? Their issues have nothing to do with you, and sometimes, it's best to let them flounder in the dark with those bags on their heads until they figure it out... if they ever do.
    (And on a happy note, when I read the first scenario, I thought that I would probably leave the bag on my head and try to find a way to remove my underwear. What does that say about me?)

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  11. i have a suitcase over my head these days.

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  12. Steph... I read this last night and it's been on my mind since. Seriously. I was thinking about it at the beach this morning, no joke.
    This was so perfect.
    Look for an email shortly... :)

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  13. I send love.

    Lets have a bag-chucking party?


    I'll make scones or something equally ridiculous.


    <3<3<3
    S.S.

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  14. Just thought I would tell you how much I look forward to reading your blog. Thank you for sharing and being so candid - you often make me smile, occasionally cry, and almost always think about the blessings in my life. It is OK to have blah days and strange moods - thank you for sharing yours with me so I feel normal.

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  15. I am crunchy and stuff, too, so I'm pretty sure my bags are also reusable. But honestly? Sometimes I wish that I could just THROW THEM OUT.

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  16. Sometimes we even paint lips and eyes on the bags and pretend they are our real face.

    The face underneath is such beauty, yet it's hidden.

    Love you.

    <3

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  17. You know Pete and Natalie? I wonder if I ran into a comment of yours on Natalie's blog! We are related to them! Okay, let me be more specific, our husbands are cousins. And LITERALLY all 4 of their kids are the EXACT same ages (okay, give or take 8 weeks or so) as our 4 kids!
    I did like whatyou had to say. Chuck it off! Let it go! Give it to God and be done with it!

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  18. No wonder I haven't been able to see anything...I've been walking around w/ a bag over my head too!!!

    Love the pic of Ivy, always so sweet!!!

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  19. there are people i want to say this to, all the time. it's just really cozy in that bag, you know? especially if they've (we've) been wearing it for a long long time.

    xoxo

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