May 14, 2010

soul beats bones

frenchman
[Yesterday was French day.]

My feet up, stretched legs out on the ottoman, and there was Gray.

He should have been in bed but he held up a book, and he really wanted me to read to him. I promised in the morning. My soul wanted to, right now. But my bones, and my mind, did not.

And truth-fully? I knew even then that in the morning I'd probably feel the same.

So I sent him back to bed, saying that if he's still awake when I come up I'll read it to him. Knowing he would [hopefully] be asleep when I came up.

I'm just another tired mother.

I tell it to myself, to make it all better.

The book he wanted to read, Are You My Mother?

Do I want my baby birds to know just another tired mother as their mother?


We read the book.



16 comments:

  1. It does my soul a little good to know that babysteph gets too tired to read sometimes too. I'm glad you guys read anyway but I *totally* would've understood had you not. :)
    ~Jenny

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  2. ((Hugs))) someday when they have all flown from the nest we mother birds will get the rest we need.

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  3. Beautiful, Steph. It's so funny that the times I force myself to do something I really don't feel like doing are often the times I'm so glad I didn't miss later. They seem more special...more hard-earned somehow. It's funny how something as simple as reading a book aloud can seem like a crushing weight when you're so tired like that, and yet, once you get into it, it's not so bad. I am just glad, for your sake, that he didn't choose The Cat In The Hat.

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  4. Oui Oui, Madame!

    That's been a favorite book of mine since I was "oui"! ;-) And sometimes I fall asleep while reading the books. We do a lot, us Mommies, it's okay (but I'm glad you still read to him...)

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  5. Carter is such a handsome frenchman. I love that book. I remember 30 years ago being where you are and I would love to go back and read just one more book. But now I have the pleasure of reading to my grandkids and when Gray comes to my house that's the book he picks almost every time.

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  6. I love "are you my mother" !!!! being tired I know that feeling too, hang in there sweetie :-)

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  7. LOVE that book!
    And here's to trying to get untired -- cause I think we could all use it!

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  8. I understand those feelings, last night as Casey was reading Ian the "Belly Button Book", I felt exhausted and spent.

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  9. That is G's favorite book from when he was little, we even found a 1960's copy recently and he was elated! These moments where you're exhausted seem to be the moments you will remember forever. Because you took the time. Because you're an amazing mother.

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  10. Oh I know that feeling. Some days are harder than others. But I agree, I don't want Emerson to know me as a tired mom. I'm trying harder too.
    Carter makes a very handsome frenchman!

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  11. You are one amazing mama. Hope your weekend is lovely and restful.

    Bri

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  12. he's so cute... and frenchy.

    i often have those feelings too, like, just leave me alone. but when I take the time to be with my kid, it is so rewarding.

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  13. I so hear you. I purposely ignored my much neglected house for the fun that has been missing around here lately. I was too tired for most of it, but somehow we find the strength. (And the chocolate! ;)

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  14. Are you my mother was one of my favorites growing up.

    Motherhood is exhausting but delicious and sweet at the same time. I'm glad you read the book.

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  15. It is hard to not be just another tired mother, sometimes. But I'm glad when I can pull myself out of it. At least for long enough to read a story, anyway.

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  16. Great picture!

    And great sentiments...something I want to remember. I don't want to be "just another tired mother" either.

    stephanie@metropolitanmama.net

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