April 26, 2010

the comfort in just being

Every week I buy flowers to put in jars or bottles that I [obsessively] save. Mums and daisies and this week, white roses. I'm certainly no interior designer, and I'll never pretend to be. I just like pretty little things around my house.

I enjoy taking photos and find it relaxing when I can sit down and look at them on my computer and have fun playing around with the editing. I'd never claim to be a photographer and will never pretend to be. I just like to take pictures. And so I will.

I love to knit, and am in the middle of a project I'm excited about, because it's for my house. But I don't really think I'd ever want to have my own etsy shop. I just want to knit for me, and for gifts. I like it this way.

I blog. And I find writing is one of my passions, but truth be told I do not blog with the hopes of getting a book deal someday. I am happy just blogging. So I will.

I am a Mom and while I would never personally consider myself The Best Mom In The World (many days I think I'm doing the WORST job at it, ever) (but I know that's not true either), I think my kids would call me that (the best mom in the world), so. I know a lot about being a Mom, but oh heck, I don't know anywhere near everything. And I will not pretend to.

I think it's perfectly ok to do neat things and do them just for the joy of it (or others) with no need of becoming a "professional whateveriam." I find comfort in just being. Me. No [yarn]strings attached.

In conclusion,
I took another test today and it was

negative.

46 comments:

  1. I wish that I was creative enough to buy fresh cut flowers. Also maybe now isn't the right time. or maybe you are just early.

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  2. the things you listed are the things that clear the mind and keep the soul joyful, so good for your for doing them "just because" :)

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  3. Such a beautiful sentiment...to just "be". Enjoy just being. Sweet things will come, in their own sweet time.

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  4. I hear ya. I recently had a moment where I realized that I need to do this just because.(translation: I've been trying to make everyone like me and got tired of it - hello new me!)

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  5. i love these words.

    they were breath of fresh air, slow-my-heartrate-down, peace whispered into my ear words.

    thank you.

    it's exactly how i feel, too, though the words have never made their way from heart to fingertips.

    it's okay to do neat things... just for the joy... no need of becoming a "professional whateveriam"... yes. (i think blogger's spellcheck raised its' eyebrows at you! but i laughed.)

    you bless!

    praying for the desire of your heart today... blank, negative, positive... He knows!

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  6. Sigh. You mean I don't have to be an expert at something because I enjoy it? Not everything is a potential business opportunity. Ahh...thanks for the weight loss.

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  7. For some reason this post made me tear up. Thank you for the reminder on how important it is just be ourselves. I'm not sure if you are trying to conceive, but if you are.. I will be praying for you.

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  8. You are such a great writer and I love seeing your cute kids all the time in pictures! I still can't get over the blank test! seriously?? That's weird! I'm sure that God has a plan and if He wants you to have more kids.. it'll happen! :) It's all in his timing{I got pregnant on birth control}, so I just try to trust that everything is going to turn out great! You are such an inspiration, and a great mom! I might be emailing you for some help when my first little one comes along in October!! Have a great week!

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  9. You may not be a "professional" or "the very best" at any of these things, but you are so inspiring to me.

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  10. Yes your heart may have room for more, but it is already so full. You are so blessed.

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  11. I LOVE LOVE LOVE this post, but I'm sorry to tell you that you are a professional good person.

    You just are.

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  12. You've stumbled onto the secret to happiness. It's all about taking joy in the little things and in enjoying just being. It's a good way to live.

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  13. I agree with Beth, you are a professional Good Person. In fact, you are one of the best Good People I know.

    And that's saying alot.

    Sorry, about the negative test...I'm sure it will happen again for you in time.

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  14. I thought you were leaving us having with yesterday's post, but it really was blank, huh?

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  15. You are killing me with those tests. Am I missing something here? I'm glad you are comfortable just being You!

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  16. I love the way you write. It intrigues me :)

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  17. Thanks for sharing this post! I really enjoyed reading it!

    did you taught that you might have been expecting again?

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  18. Ps are you ok with you test result??? Or have mix emotions about it???

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  19. Loved this post! I feel the same way about things. Sometimes I wish I had the PERFECT life...but I realize that the life I live is PERFECT for me!

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  20. I love this post, because I feel this way about the things I love, too. Especially knitting... I feel like if I started doing it as a "job" it would lose all of its magic. Right now it's still this little thing I keep for myself, which is probably why I can't stop doing it. :-)

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  21. This really blessed me today. Sometimes I feel like every time I pick up a hobby, people expect me to climb the ladder until that "professional" label is achieved. I like to crack jokes, but I don't want to be a stand up comedian. I like to clean floors, but that doesn't mean I want to be a janitor. ;) I really enjoy just being, even if other people think I shouldn't. I do. And I will.
    Thanks for sharing. :) And, I'm sorry for the negative. Not because I think it's sad, but because I happen to think that you, like myself, are the type of person who takes such tests and until the day it becomes impossible, will maybe sigh a little tiny wistful sigh at every one that's not positive. Not because we're sad, just 'cause. But that's just my speculation. ;)

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  22. The more I read you, I just keep liking you more and more and more. I agree with Beth. You really are something, Steph.

    xoxo elizabeth

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  23. Love this Steph. Thanks for always being real.

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  24. great post.

    i struggle with this because i see some great work at home moms that have shops and i'm like "i can do that! i can sell those!' and i think i can become a little work at home mom person. but i can't. i don't have the time or the talent.

    thank you for keeping this in perspective. i'm currently working on a little project for our home too.

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  25. I'm glad it wasn't blank again. Are you a little disappointed? I only ask because I bet that I would be.

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  26. AMEN.

    Girl, you are so funny with your tests! And didn't you have blank ones right after Ivy? I think you need to buy a different brand. HA.

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  27. There is such freedom in doing something just because you love it. It's so liberating.

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  28. If you are wanting a positive, which I assume you are!, I am sending much baby dust your way. I wish I could have more kids but it is not advised for me. :( I hope that you are able to have as many children as you are able to care for! :)

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  29. Seriously? I have a saved post I just did about this. About how I enjoy things but am not great at everything I enjoy. I do them because I like to.

    And whatever you are hoping for, I'm praying for you.

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  30. I find comfort in alot of the same things. I love summertime when i can go out in my yard and cut flowers to bring them inside.

    And I'm pretty sure I rule at being the worst mom ever - or at least that's what my anxiety keeps telling me around 3am every night when I can't sleep...

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  31. this.post.

    is so true. there is this ever-present need to achieve, be the greatest...amongst moms, so often. even though it shouldn't be.

    thanks for writing this.

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  32. I totally understand your not wanting an etsy store and sometimes deeply regret mine-- because in an ideal world I would just make gifts for everyone all the time.

    I constantly worry that people won't like the stuff they bought from me or things like that. I also hate taking money from people and wish that purse supplies were free so I could just give them away.

    But, for me, who has no kids to chase after, the store can be a lot of fun. Since my current living/working situation is a bit isolating, it is kind of my social life. Perhaps when your kids all leave home and you have hours to do nothing but knit, we will drag you into our etsy world. :-)

    Oh, and BTW, I like this post. :-)

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  33. me too. it was negative too. i think it is okay though.

    i'm with you. i'm not a professional anything and that's okay. i just have fun doing stuff.

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  34. Katie Jo will often say, "Guess who's the best mommy in the world?" and I'll guess a few names to which "No" is stated firmly and then I'll say mine and she'll say "Yes!" I need those moments because most days I do feel like I'm doing a horrible job. I told someone today that I like to give everything about 10% and that way I consider myself an equal opportunist! :) You were so sweet to ask how we were doing the other day and before I turn old and gray I will update my blog. Cheers!

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  35. There is a reason why yours is my favorite blog and has been since I started blogging.

    I love coming here. And I agree with Beth 100%, you are truly a professional good person!

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  36. Not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing or an indifferent thing that the test was negative... either way you go, I'm sending you a hug.

    Nell

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  37. I love this post. Me too (except for the pregnancy test part!).

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  38. I'm obsessed with having eucalyptus and fresh greens in my various vases.

    Love this post. Adore you.

    Hugs and cheek smooches

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  39. this was an awesome post! so sweet and sentimental! you have inspired me to go buy some flowers today :) and to just be me ( a mom , a wife, a friend, a sister ...)

    as for your results, i wish i had something perfect to say but i don't so instead i'm sending you a hug :)

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  40. Love your blog posts and miss talking to you.

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  41. yep it's called being content and it is such a great place to be :)

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  42. {hugs to you}

    i think you're gr8t! i love your realness. your punctuation. and style of writing. your photos, your littles.

    especially that you share your.heart!

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  43. I think it's perfectly ok to do neat things and do them just for the joy of it (or others) with no need of becoming a "professional whateveriam." I find comfort in just being. Me. I'd been struggling with this for a while now, and have only recently, finally, found my peace with it. You've worded my thoughts better than I ever could have hoped to.

    I took a test the other day too...negative. ::sigh:: Someday...

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  44. You wrote this post beautifully...in such a calming, peaceful way.

    P.S. I agree with Elizabeth - "You really are something, Steph." :)

    stephanie@metropolitanmama.net

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