So, here's my new 'do. And it probably doesn't look all that new to anyone but me. It's still long even though I came thisclose to chopping it all off. I'm just not ready. It is a lot lighter, which I like. It was like an instant tan. I've been pretty pasty lately.
I have a new plan, though- I am going to grow out my bangs and get a much shorter, stylish look in the near future.
And I know it's just hair, but you know what?
I care about stuff like that. I do.
I care about how I look and I want to have nice hair. It makes me feel good, when I look good.
I like to feel beautiful.
Why does this feel like a confession? Isn't it ok to want to feel and look beautiful?
And that doesn't mean I always have to be all dolled up, - most times it does take how I feel on the inside to shine thru on the outside, but lots of times? It's because I feel good in the clothes I'm wearing or I'm having a good hair day or did my eye makeup just right.
Lots of outward beauty stuff.
And truly, I don't think I'm a very pretty (on the outside) person. I have never been a "natural beauty", I don't usually like photos of me, and I don't even really like the photo I finally posted here.
I want to be pretty for my husband, and when out in public, and for my kids, and when I pass a mirror in my house.
I know these things shouldn't matter. But they do. To me.
I'm 33 years old and secretly want to get my nose pierced. [A teensy weensy tiny speck of a nose piercing], but I'm 33 years old and think I'm past the expiration date on that one. If you have one already, you're grandfathered in (I think that's how it works?) But for me to go get it done now? Aren't I a bit too old for that? I'm still not convinced.
I have new hair. And it makes me feel pretty.