I seriously can't keep up, and never could have imagined this thing that brings me so much fulfillment would even require me to.
And if it's only what I make it then I've sadly made it way too hard on myself. Just what is so urgent and important that I feel lowly if I am not constantly connected or communicating? I can't hear my own thoughts.
It's too much confusion and you know what? I don't need that in my life right now.
I need some quiet time and solitude so that I can hear my heart beat and my baby breathe, so I can see the beauty in a simple day, and, honestly, feel better about myself.
I will still write here because that is what I originally intended to do. But I am closing the door to everything else until I feel it's time- and right for me- to take a look again.