March 24, 2009

They Might Be Neat But They're Still Piles

Piles. I have them everywhere.

In the bathroom, about to do laundry, I have the towels, the underwear and socks, and there are the colors. Piles of winter clothes, piles of outgrown clothes in the boys' room.

In my bedroom there's a pile of books, they make a tight pile in a stack. In the living room a pile of toys. It's a neat bunch in a basket. By my desk too many piles of too many things.

I have piles of children. Piles of friends. Family. Responsibilities. Piles of promises.

I keep them in their category. Sometimes I keep them from me.

On a clear day when the windows are open and I embrace energy with the heart of a lion, everything is easy and the piles are put away where they go. A place for them all and they fit in their place.

Clouds crawl by and my eyes are drowsy and it all spills out, into piles, again.

And it gets easy to make my map around them, to add on top of them, what's another onto the pile? But I find I only have mind to give attention to just one or two. So, the others suffer and grow like an infection.

The moments when they're smoothed from wrinkles, tucked and tidy, are so few. Out of habit, out of pride, out of need I try to satisfy. Every pile, a push and shove and kick-the-door-closed to keep them from spilling out again and again.

But they do.



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32 comments:

  1. Wow.

    I have those too, but never could have put it quite like that. Those words are piles quite beautifully.
    Jen

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  2. So, you're a professional PILot? (Sorry, couldn't resist) Sorting is the first step to organizing, looks like you've got a good start there.

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  3. Beautifully said. It could easily describe my life also!

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  4. So that's what all this stuff in my life and house is - piles!

    I love this post and your writing - it's so real! Thank you for blogging.

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  5. I can definitely relate to this post! I really find that my energy and moods are often affected by the weather. Here's looking forward to summer!

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  6. I think one of the key things is instead of getting rid of the piles, learn to live in them.

    Make sure your friends, family, and love piles stay BIG!!

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  7. You said it much more eloquently than I could have. Usually I just curse when tripping over said piles, whether literal or figurative.

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  8. Wow. You just described me perfectly. Words are your friend.

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  9. I have never looked at my piles in such a beautiful way - well at least you painted and worded them so beautifully even though they are just piles. But yes, I feel all that you've said too.

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  10. I *heart* you Steph, my desk if full of piles.

    Last years motto: "Every Day -throw away".
    This year: every week: clean out a closet, drawer, or container.

    I'm trying to de-clutter, sometimes not working so good.

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  11. isn't that the truth! Piles and piles and some days no piles at all! I know, it is far easier to pile at the moment and walk away, but there is always the day we have to come back to them.

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  12. I hear you. Going to tackle some of my piles today.

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  13. Oh Steph... You are not alone... :) I read this and feel like wow she just jumped into my head. I'm the same way... sun the piles go away... Clouds they seem to grow by the thousands it seems... This was exquisitely written... So real So life... Thanks for sharing!

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  14. I think as long as we live there will always be piles, but you said it so beautifully! I will now look at my piles in a different way.

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  15. Ohhh yes, I can relate to that. Right now I have piles of dishes, piles of laundry (my daughter likes to un-pile the neat stacks I've already done), piles of things I should've done months ago, and piles of things I need to be doing for this pregnancy, like exercising regularly and getting childbirth classes underway. I think the worst piles are my mental ones.

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  16. I can so relate. Just beautiful.

    On another note...I had a dream last night that I came to visit and was hanging out with you, Beth, Arianne, and the other Indiana Girls. Ivy was totally talking and Libby's hair was SUPER long. Weird.

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  17. This is the most poetic description of piles I have ever heard!

    Beautifully written Steph! I think every Mom can relate to you here!

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  18. Very nicely written Steph. We all have our "piles" don't we?

    Most of mine reside in the laundry room and on my scrapbooking desk...

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  19. Love this. And also? Making sure I didn't write it, b/c it seems like you read my mind yet again.

    The piles are overtaking me, I feel like I'm living in Wall-E times with those huge piles having taken over the whole planet. Me just collecting a tiny amount from here, and moving it there. So futile.

    P.S. rolling my eyes at my mom :)

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  20. P.P.S. I wasn't referring to literal piles, and I'm sure you knew that...but I do have those too...

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  21. Oh wow....describes my life and the chaos I've been trying to handle and get control of! How do we regain control?!

    Wonderful post and written so well!!! :) I guess its good to have piles!

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  22. You have a way with words Steph, very well said! My mind seems to have more piles than anything else lately. Thinking about doing this and that. All the time that I am doing this I'm thinking about doing that. My mind piles are piling and I'm just waiting for them to come crashing down. So, it's kind of nice to see that others have piles too.

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  23. Great post. I can totally relate. Both in the physical and mental realms.

    I often try to make lists to make my piles more manageable, but then I end up with piles of lists about my piles.

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  24. I am also a pile person. I tend to wait though until my piles "throw up" to do anything about it. Still working on that...

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  25. Hee.
    Piles.
    Hee.
    (That's the word they use in the UK for hemorrhoids.)

    Sorry. I know I ruined a perfectly good moody post. ;)

    Your words really did paint a picture of the feelings I associate with the piles at my house.

    Glad to know I'm not alone.

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  26. Oh Stephanie. This post is MY LIFE. You just said way more beautifully than I ever could. Wow.

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  27. Wonderful analogy! I would love to crawl right under one of my piles some days! (Sorry for the long bloggy reading absence... I know you missed me!)

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  28. You're either a "piler" or a "filer" - I'm a "piler" too - and I quite like my piles (and yours)!

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  29. You just described my life brilliantly. I wish I had a solution to offer, but I only offer commiseration. Consider yourself stumbled.

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  30. I just thought you would like to know my house looks like an F5 tornado hit it and it's just piles...it is stressing me out right now but there isn't much I can do about it...the sheetrock guys are STILL THERE!!! In fact, my downstairs is BLOCKED off from my upstairs...so all I can do is commiserate...

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  31. Oh my goodness...this is SOOO me!!

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