February 25, 2009

There Really Ought To Be A Sign Upon My Heart

I was struggling.

There are pieces of me that I bare so unabashedly. But those are just pieces. It's not all of me.

I couldn't find my happy place.

I could fall on my knees to pray but down there I was met with crumbs on the carpet and reminded again that I need to vacuum. Then I would just become sleepy.

Some days all I want is to be in a moment- any moment- that is uninterrupted.

There's only so much of me to go around. And I feel like I've been offering up first dibs to all the wrong people and things.



I remember thin and fake wood paneled walls in the upstairs of our old church. The plastic seats and prize bucket if you remembered your verse and brought a friend and your bible.

And this song written big and neat on poster board with colored smelly markers:

He's still working on me to make me what I ought to be.
It took Him just a week to make the moon and stars,
The sun and the earth and Jupiter and Mars.
How loving and patient He must be, He's still working on me.


Hey everyone, I'm under construction! And that's ok.


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47 comments:

  1. I've never heard that song but I love it. So true.

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  2. very nice! And really just what I need to hear today. Thanks!

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  3. I laughed about the crumbs on the floor and teared up about how we are all a work in progress. Hope today is a good one sweetie!

    Elaine

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  4. I have totally been feeling this way lately. Well said. That verse is going up on my desk today.

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  5. I was humming along because I still remember those days. And I can so relate to the crumbs on the floor and the feeling that you have given yourself to the wrong people. I am so proud of you, Steph, for wearing that sign on your heart.

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  6. We are all under construction. I forget that all too often and get very down about myself, my life, my whatever. Thanks for the reminder. :)

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  7. It is okay, and that song is so true. Never be afraid to be selfish, to not want to give all of yourself. Sometimes you just need to hold on to every little piece of yourself that you can, even if that means saying no or not now or never.

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  8. Oh darlin', aren't we all? And I give you permission to say no to people when you need to. If only it were that easy.

    Nell

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  9. I should have worn water proof mascara before reading this. I'm glad going to Sunday School as a little girl left such an impression. Don't feel so bad, I'm still under construction and I don't know if I will ever be finished.

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  10. It's only when we are no longer under construction that we need to begin to worry! You are the perfect work in progress, just as you were meant to be!

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  11. It's only when we are no longer under construction that we need to begin to worry! You are the perfect work in progress, just as you were meant to be!

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  12. I'm under construction, too. :) That's a good way of putting it. Thanks for sharing these thoughts; it's good to know I'm in good company.

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  13. That was beautiful and the song of this mother's heart.

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  14. Hang in there...I have had those moments, too! I hope it only gets better from here!

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  15. That is so true. We are all under construction. I am sorry you have been struggling so much! You are such a breath of fresh air I wish I could do something to make it a little easier for you. Thanks for sharing.

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  16. I think we all are. I feel the same way somedays. Love the song.

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  17. What great lyrics to start out the day. Hugs to you in hope you find a peaceful moment. I had one last night when I finally got to go to the bathroom without my toddler ONLY to come out and find out that he had decided to go himself ON THE HALLWAY FLOOR. Sigh.

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  18. What a wonderful way to look at life ... we are all under construction, I agree! And this too makes me feel better about the crumbs on the floor! Thanks for sharing. A magical day to you!

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  19. Oh, I can vividly remember belting that one out in Sunday school. VIVIDLY. The whole class completely off pitch, the boys yelling the song so they could be louder. Well...you get the picture.

    I believe we are all permanently under construction. Each and every day life gives us a new piece to the puzzle, and the puzzle is never, nor will it ever be complete. Because if it was, it would signal the end.

    Keep praying and keep picking up those pieces. And I don't mean the pieces of crumbs off your rug.

    So much love.

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  20. And the best part is, every day is a fresh start.

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  21. I love that song, too. I sing it to my baby all the time- thanks for the reminder! :)

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  22. THANK YOU! I really needed to be reminded that He is still working on me, today.

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  23. it's comforting to me knowing that I am a work in progress - 'cause if this is as good as it gets - well . . . well said!

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  24. thankful that we're all still under construction!! now if we can just accept that & be open to the changing and molding...
    thanks for the reminder.
    hope you're having a great day.

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  25. Those days are all too familiar in my life. I always did like that song; thanks for the reminder (and we had the cheap, thin wood paneling in our church, too).

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  26. What a great song! It's so good to be reminded of God's love for us.

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  27. I am a REALLY REALLY big building. There are so many beams and boards still needing the walls to hold me together. And I run from the Carpenter far too often. You're not alone. There are some seasons of life that make it really hard to grow, all the interruptions and the lack of sleep...Oh! I just thought of something great--I'll email you the link (a post by the best kept secret in blogland)

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  28. Oh Steph...beautifuly expressed as always. We are all under construction and not only is it OK, it is more than OK, because of WHO is doing the work. So often I feel like those fake plastic paneling walls you described in your memory...but I am so thankful that God can take what is broken, what is artificial, what is cheap, what is decaying and reconstruct it into something so fabulous and so beyond me. Thank you for sharing. I've been really hurting this week and needed this reminder.

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  29. So so so true. We are all under construction. I feel that I am under construction more than most, but like you said, that's ok.
    Thank you for this.

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  30. I feel that way too some days and I only have one child...well said.

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  31. under construction...

    i am always still a work in progress + my one thought to bring me back to earth is that if i ever become what i am supposed to be then life will have ended.

    as we learn + grow, we change. which make us fluid. and always a work in progress. always under construction.

    good luck as you embark on this new building phase...

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  32. You bet it's okay! We are all under construction and it's a really long project.

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  33. I remember that song! It's a great reminder. I think I need to print it out & hang it all over the house.

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  34. I love that quote "I'm under construction" it's such a great way to look at ones self. At the end of each day I think about what I have and haven't accomplished, it seems that my do do list for the next day just keeps getting longer but what can you do, life is a work in progress. Thanks for sharing this!

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  35. Oh Steph, I am sending you some big blogging love girl. Life can get so hectic that sometimes it is easy to loose perspective and forget to inhale that sweetness that is around you. But, you always seem to know when to do it and when to slow down. Thank you for reminding us all to as well.

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  36. Yep, you along with the rest of us.

    And, that's a good thing to admit!

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  37. Yep it sure is OK that you are under construction. You are writing words that probably speak to quite a number of women. Keep doing it.

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  38. we all are dear - nothing to be ashamed of :-)

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