And just like that, they could not find the heartbeats.
This doesn't really happen this can not be happening make it stop oh why I don't understand.
I prayed there had been a mistake. I prayed so hard they would find the heartbeats.
I was pregnant, too. One year ago today, I carried a baby in my belly, so precious. So bittersweet.
James, I am so sad that I never got to hold you and smell your head.
Jake, I am so sad that I never got to hear your deep belly laugh. Maybe at something Ivy did. : )
James and Jake, you are so loved. You will forever be remembered by so many people that probably would have never even met you if you had lived to be a hundred years old.
If I could whisper just one thing in your little ears this very moment- while at one time it could have been your Mama's crazy or I think you're a goofy loof or don't eat your toes!
It's not any of those today.
Jake, James, here on earth and now there in heaven, you brought me closer to your Mommy.
I would hold you and smell your heads, and whisper,
I see you in her eyes. I feel your presence all around her.
One year ago today, you left her arms. You will never be gone from her heart.