December 14, 2008

It Could Be So Different

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In the rare moments of quiet I have found myself wondering how exactly I got here.


I look around.

Hello.

Hello?

I have four kids.


I am almost thirty two years old.
I'm, like, a grown up. When did this happen?

I've done things, made decisions to get myself to this very moment in time.

I've had faith that moved mountains, I've fallen on my knees, on my face, down big black holes. Sometimes I thought I'd never get up.

But always, somewhere deep, deep down I knew I was going to win.


This photo has special meaning for me, during a time that t
here was so much unknown ahead. We never let it get the best of us- the darkness, the epilepsy, the heartache, the loss, the being beaten to the ground- whatever you want to call it.

We got up.

By the grace and mercy and power and might and strength and love of God, a very good God, we made it.


The hard times are never really over. But we're still winning.

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We've already won.

24 comments:

  1. BEAUTIFUL!!! Woohoo for getting back up and surviving.

    And thank GOD for our beautiful children.

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  2. YES, and We did get up! God is good. I love this picture so much. Noah looks so happy and innocent. Very touching post!

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  3. It really is amazing when you stop and think and realize how many times you have already won! Thank you for the reminder.

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  4. Stephanie, you are so right with your words....I admire your gift of writing so much and how you state it all...very overpowering at times. This picture is absolutely adorable. Am looking forward to some Christmas pictures of all 4 of your children - they are so sweet. Have a wonderful holiday and enjoy your little ones.
    Blessings, Debbie from Decatur - Erin West's aunt

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  5. So proud of you. No. Words. Just proud to know you!

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  6. Living your faith is the most precious gift you can give to your children. This is what you have given to yours, and you've seen the miracles that faith returns...

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  7. Your message is beautiful! Thanks for sharing it with all of us!

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  8. Just beautiful and peaceful! Everyone has said it all, I agree with all of the above!

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  9. I wonder when I grew up too. I have three kids but still feel too young to have them sometimes!

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  10. beautifully said! I look around sometimes and wonder how exactly did I get here? God has a plan and sometimes that is all you can hold on to!

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  11. That's a great picture!

    It is crazy to think how we got here in what seems like no time...

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  12. may blessings continue to follow you and your family.

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  13. Well said! I am so happy for your lovely family! And yes, it is crazy to realize we are "grown ups" now....how did that happen? hahaha!!

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  14. they look so little! sweet post Steph :)

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  15. Thank you for this. Completely different situation on my end but I have a feeling your words still apply :)

    And you have but I don't think you've just gotten up, you've taken flight.

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  16. I am constantly amazed at how time passes and how things that seemed so hard at the time help define who we are.

    It surprises me that more people don't have faith. Because for me, knowing that God is rooting for me and that my job is to let Him have the reigns He ultimately has the control over anyway is so much easier than dealing with the stress that comes from thinking I have the power.

    Merry Christmas Steph to you and your family!

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  17. So inspiring to hear your story of perseverance. God certainly is good.

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  18. Yes yes yes. I am 32-thirty two! Sometimes I need to write it out, see it on the screen to remember how old I am. Crazy huh,how time flies? It seems like yesterday that I was learing to drive, graduating from highschool, college, buying my first house, you know, all the grown up things. I still don't feel totally grown up, and haven't quite gotten used to motherhood, wifehood and adulthood.It is a lot to handle. And yes having FAITH gets me through the tough days,when I want to be in the house all by myself and not have a MOUNTAIN of laundry haunting me from the other room. But of course, that goes away when I am nursing the baby or playing with my oldest and thinking wow I have two little people who depend on me for everything! Overwhelming...YES! But so worth it. HAPPY HOLIDAYS.

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  19. Yes, I'd say you've already won. You are very blessed, Steph. I love this post.

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  20. Thank God we can see clearly with by clearing our eyes and in the blink of an eye. Beautiful.

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  21. This touches me like you could never know, because I am going through some of those hard times now, and I need to know we will get through it. So reading things like these validates what I know to be true. We will.

    Thank you.

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  22. When you said ...."By the grace and mercy and power and might and strength and love of God, a very good God, we made it.".....it brought tears to my eyes! I know that kind of joy that comes from ONLY HIM after HE'S pulled you out of darkness! Beautiful post!

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  23. I really like this blog. I feel the same way so many times!

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