November 4, 2008

Catch


It's ironic- funny how accurate the photo I posted yesterday of Ivy's cheeks spoke for much of what I've been feeling lately.

Do you see that precious life that I get to call mine?

This work at home Mom dealio is such an incredible blessing, but it is taking some time to figure out. When I have cheeks like those to kiss all day and eyes so blue in them I get lost... and a little-voiced dinosaur three-year old with the best hugs and head-resting-on-my-shoulder ever- just what is the balance I am longing for?

A catch twenty-two, being able to work so that I can stay home with them, but I just want to be with them.


I catch myself lost in Ivy's eyes, thinking about the weights and measures and frailty of life, the gift it is. The meaning of it all. Am I drawing myself near to that which I should...

or only making it even harder to reach?

There are just too many little bits of too many little things that are occupying my time and I end up getting to the end of my day and...

find that what it really adds up to isn't much at all.


In this moment, for however long I might need, please excuse me. I must catch my breath.

I have some cheeks to kiss and eyes to get lost in.


And life to live.


Photo by Beth of Beth Fletcher Photography.

55 comments:

  1. Take as long as you need. Breathe in all that sweetness.

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  2. breathe in. Slowly breathe in.

    They're only that way once.

    eh, coming from the workaholic herself.

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  3. Absolutely, that sweet baby and toddler time is fleeting.

    {{hugs}}
    steph

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  4. Oh I can so relate... but I wouldn't trade it for anything! Well... except maybe not needing to work!

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  5. Love the pic, love the sentiment. You'll get it all figured out--enjoy, enjoy your baby cheeks!
    Blessings!

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  6. at the end of their life they arnt going to remember how clean the house was and how organized you are.

    they will remember the kisses and love that filled your house. kiss those cheeks and get lost in those eyes!

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  7. This photo is breathtaking, beautiful family.

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  8. This is a great picture.

    You can take maternity leave even if you work from home you know.

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  9. Good for you, Steph. : ) I have so been there and God's taught me so much about my priorities in those "quiet" times.

    You enjoy those babies.

    Love,
    Happi

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  10. I think you're allowed to get lost in your children as long as you want.
    Beautiful photo. I'm definitely posting more of Beth's photos soon. They express so much!

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  11. If all of the moments of all of your time all end up on all of those cheeks, you will experience all of God's perfection...

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  12. steph,

    that picture is beautiful. enjoy your time with your little ones. we'll all be here when you get back.

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  13. I can imagine it can be overwhelming with those cute cheeks around all the time. ;)

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  14. I LOVE that photo! It's beautiful.

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  15. What a great photo! The time does go so fast, doesn't it?

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  16. take your time and slow down if you need to... we'll all be here when you get back!

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  17. definitely savor the days! and i love that photo!

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  18. i think we can all relate and certainly all understand. enjoy your beautiful life, mama. :)

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  19. I love the photo, and can certainly relate-I have been having the same struggle lately-I love my work that I get paid for at Dakno, and I love the writing and friendship (and the hope of maybe getting paid to blog) that I get here, but at the same time, I wonder if I do balance everything the way it needs to be.

    Take your time and enjoy!I'll be glad to hear from you when you get back :)

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  20. I really, really love the picture!

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  21. I LOVE that picture... I might have to try that out myself.

    Brittany

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  22. Take it all in because they grow too fast!!!

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  23. I totally understand what you mean and it is very similar to my first post that I posted just days ago. I hope you take a look.

    BYW...love your blog.

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  24. what a great picture! time goes by too fast.

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  25. Just stunning.. Beth did a wonderful job on your photos... you keep encouraging me to have another secretly haha.

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  26. Yes, just breathe. When it starts to feel like you're doing so many things that you just can't do any one of them well, you just have to stop and breathe in those babies.

    Lovely post (and picture)

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  27. I'm right there with you, sister. Right there. It's so fleeting. Enjoy those cheeks and eyes, because while they'll always be yours to love, they won't always be so tiny and cooperative.

    Great photo, but you knew that already ;)

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  28. awww, you're such a really really good writer. So beautiful how you capture the fleeting joy of motherhood. It all happens so fast.

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  29. I want to see all the pictures that Beth took.. Wow.. they're amazing!!!!!!!!
    Hopefully you helped to encourage her to take this leap.. her pictures are so cool...

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  30. Do what you have to do and what matters most. We'll always be here for ya.

    Lovely photo!

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  31. This is beautiful...and that photo! Absolutely breath taking!

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  32. That photo is so beautiful. I love the framing and the way that your family is "positioned."

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  33. It really is the push and pull of working from home. I'm thankful to have a business that I've built to be passive. Many days I don't work. It's nice. But it did take time to get it to that point.

    I just know that I don't want to be the WAHM that gets sucked into the computer more than into her kids. The WAHM whose kids know her back more than her face.

    You take all the time you need. I'm sure all your commitments will understand.

    And what a stunning photo!

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  34. I love the photo - awesome. And I know exactly what you mean. When work and motherhood are both at home, it's hard to remember to keep a balance. To find a balance. I also have to constantly step back and see where I am and where I SHOULD be. Breathe - enjoy - live!

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  35. You need to - because those kisses are what's important.

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  36. Great picture.

    I think I know just what you mean. I've been there and am there on most days. The little things can add up and I forget about what really matters. It isn't an easy place to be.

    Enjoy your little ones. I pray you get it figured out in the way that is just right for your sweet family.

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  37. So precious...Jeff and the boys look like they are admiring the women in the household.

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  38. I love that top on you by the way :--)

    Nell

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  39. That picture is breathtaking! Love it so much!

    Honestly, I'm surprised it's taken you this long to come to your realization...you really should take a few steps back from all this techno-crazed stuff! It's so not what is important in this life.

    Plus, don't forgot that most women take at least 6 weeks to 6 months maternity leave! XOXO

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  40. Live it girl! You only get one go at it so live it to the fullest! : )

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  41. Without a doubt. When this becomes more imposing on our time than the time we are striving for (the time with our little ones) then it's time to step back.

    Go smoosh those cheeks a bit more...

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  42. LIVE! Enjoy! I often wonder how moms of new babies keep blogging. I couldn't do it.

    And that's a GORGEOUS photo. Beth is so talented.

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  43. Drink in your moments.

    We'll be okay until you return!

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  44. These are the days ... the good old days, but going on right now! Glad you can slow down and enjoy it.

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  45. Nice beautiful family on that photo! :-)

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  46. That photo totally just took my breath away. I think all of us in the blogosphere want to poke her little cheek to see if it is real! :) Soooo precious...

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  47. Beautiful pics! And what sweet cheeks.

    Life sure is full as a SAH mom, but your right, it's such a blessing too!

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  48. Oh what a darling picture - I love how Beth captured the family in such a neat way. Awesome! Those are pictures you and your family will cherish for a lifetime!

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