And I don't think I am ready to look at Gray that way just yet.
So when he called for me soon after I fell asleep, I leaped out of bed and brought him to me. We embraced and fell asleep tight that way. I couldn't bury my face in his hair deep enough, I couldn't stop sneaking in a kiss or two as he drifted off to sleep. And I couldn't stop feeling so very thankful for these last few days, hours, before a new baby soon becomes the smallest member of the family.
And Gray will become a big brother. He will look big all over. As long as he always knows how big my love is for him, it will all be ok.