August 16, 2008

I Can Hear Myself Think

The weather has been more than pleasant the past few days. I've had the windows open and tv and music off. It's amazing how much I can hear myself think in the quiet times. I feel my body not only physically readying for childbirth, but now find my mind settling and slowing down in preparation.

And in these moments I've been a better listener, to His voice, and to my own intuition. I realize that what I write here gives the appearance that I am consumed by motherhood and pregnancy. But, it is not the Mother in me that writes here, it is the Writer. It is Me.

I am not just the Mom whose child had and was healed of epilepsy. I am not just a Mother who is about to have her fourth baby. I am not just the Mom that is making her way day in and day out with her hopes and dreams pinned upon her children. I have a purpose. And in the quiet, I find that purpose revealed more clearly. Sometimes ever changing. But it's real. And it's just for me.

And by those things being a part of me, the Mom that I am, I can be used to do great things. By being someone that still has dreams and desires beyond the realm of having small children, I can be used to do great things. By the unknown ahead of me, I can be used to do great things. And just what defines great? To you, or even to me, it might seem small. But if I can be a light in the darkness, even a small light can lead the way.

If I can be still in the stillness, there is so much to hear.

17 comments:

  1. That was absolutely beautiful. And so true. I still can feel myself as my own person as well. Motherhood can be all consuming but luckily I've been able to hold on to myself as well.
    Gorgeous post.

    But, um, what is this quiet time you speak of? How do you get any of that with your three boys around? It must be at midnight or something. ;)

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  2. God does have a beautiful purpose for each and every one of us to be a light for him, I do believe. :)

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  3. Beautifully said. It is so easy to become overwhelmed in motherhood that I forget the rest of me. Or I seem to find all my worth in being a mother.

    But my worth is actually in God, not in my children, and I need to remember that . . .

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  4. How is it that you knew how I have been feeling lately? That being a mother is sometimes all consuming and I don't often have time to myself to stop and dream. My kids are everything to me, but it's so nice to be reminded that we are not just mothers, but there is so much more to us! Thanks for reminding ALL of us of that. And, of course, you said it more beautifully than I ever could...as always. :)

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  5. Thanks for the reminder that He has a purpose for us individually, as well as mothers! It was the encouragement I needed as I contemplate where God is taking me next. The possibilities are a littel scary sometimes, for me anyway, but exciting!

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  6. It's amazing what this weather can do for a person's emotions! I have been very peaceful, too. The air, the sky... beautiful

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  7. Reading you post made me think of Prov 31 and Titus 2: God did give us a specific function to be our husband helpmate and to procreate.

    I'm not saying that is the only thing we should do, Prov 31 wife was a very good example of how much our role is vast and complex.

    God as given you a beautiful role as a wife and mother and by writing this blog your becoming the older Titus 2 women a example to all the new mom readers who need much needed guidance!

    So thank you for being so open and to write this blog!

    Renee

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  8. You have done great things. And you will continue to do great things.

    Have a blessed weekend. I am excited to meet your new little one.

    You inspire me to be a mother one day!

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  9. Beautifully put! I know that this is a struggle for me off and on too, but He does have so much more in store :) This is the season of small kids but it will pass all too soon.

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  10. I love this post. Thanks for sharing it with me.

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  11. It's so hard to shut out all the noise of life sometimes. I need to find some quiet and peace before this next week's rollercoaster ride begins.

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  12. What a beautiful post. I agree that we need more quiet times for reflection. By the way, thanks so much for stopping by my blog. It sounds like you love blog carnivals just as much as I do, so I just wanted to let you know that I’m starting one of my own on Monday, August 18th, – with prize attached! Thought you might want to check it out. Hope to see you again soon!

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  13. I love this post--I've been thinking about this a lot lately. I appreciate the way you've articulated it. So beautifully put!

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  14. Beautiful. I tend to get lost in being a mom and a wife and forget that I have more purpose in my life.

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  15. Oh, so well said. I have been slightly feeling like I'm losing myself lately. It's sort of easy to let happen with small children.

    Thank you for opening yourself to us and reminding us that His purpose for us is wonderful and great!

    Hugs,
    Heidi

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  16. As I find my mojo and go back to what makes me, me, and what God's plan is for that me, this so resonated with me...

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  17. That's beautiful. Words to live by.

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