Soon after, we had to head to a wedding of my childhood friend's sister. One who I remember when she was born! And now she is starting a whole new journey in life as a married woman. I saw her parents give away their last daughter. They whispered to me, pointing to the little girl in my belly, that 22 years comes faster than we know.
This life, the cycle, there is no stopping it. A baby is kicking and growing inside me right now! I wish, for the sake of beautiful words, that I could write how blessed and in complete awe I am that I have this life inside me. Have you really taken a moment to realize what an absolute miracle that is? Or what an absolute miracle today alone is? This day, this very moment we too often forget to notice.
Where it ends for one, it begins for another. I want each day I live to have purpose, as it very well could be my last. Or if not, if I have many many days ahead, I want all of those days to have reason. I want you to be able to see the love of our Creator from my heart and from my actions. I hope you can see the miracle that is my own life. I want my children living out the life God designed for them. There are decisions and choices and hearts involved and affected. Other lives. That will go on living or take their last breath today.
What I feel is unearthly. It's not a heaviness, and it doesn't hurt my heart. It's not scary, but maybe a little exciting. It's unknown. I can't explain it. It's life. And it's real.