May 9, 2008

And Deep Down I Knew

This morning during the brief moments I gathered my thoughts in the shower, I was reminded of the pregnancies with my boys. With each one, hubby and I knew what their name would be if they were a boy, but we never had a good feeling about a girl name. With this pregnancy, the only name we feel is right, is truly the name of this baby, is a girl's name.

So I wondered if that was an indication. So many parts of me felt like I was carrying a daughter, the first daughter for our family of sons, but was that just a secret desire? Was it something I was longing for?

When the ultrasound technician was showing us our baby for the first time on the screen today, I was mesmerized by the beating heart. The little arms moving, legs bent, ribs showing. I was in awe at this life inside me, living and moving around and safe. When she asked if we'd like to know if it was a boy or girl, we said yes please. But until that moment I kinda forgot to look for that "part."
I was lost in the miracle.

I keep playing it over and over in my mind. Her pointing the little computer arrow to my baby's underside and saying, "it's a little girl."

Smiles filled the room and I just looked at her and said "are you sure are you sure are you sure?" Because we've never been this way before. My baby was giving us quite the show and the tech said she is very sure.

And we are very excited. And walking on clouds. And smiling. A lot. We've never been this way before, and I'm liking the change of scenery already.


101 comments:

  1. We are also having a girl ... so it will be interesting to see how life changes after 2 boys! It must be the year of the girl! :)

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  2. Oh how exciting! Congrats on the coming girl!!

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  3. CONGRATS!!! I just got goose bumps!!!

    As the only girl with three brothers myself let me tell you: they will annoy her until she is about 22. Then they will become her best friends.

    Sniff.

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  4. I can only imagine how you're feeling! I am elated for you. Can't wait to meet HER and am so excited to see what those three boys think about their sister!
    xoxo

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  5. Oh congratualtions!! She will surely be loved (and protected by all those big brothers!!)

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  6. This makes me all teary (again...I've been doing that a lot lately...), and I'm so just HAPPY. Happy for you, for all your boys, for the sweetie that has already joined your family. I wonder if she will be like you, or like your hubz. I can't wait to meet her!

    P.S. If it's the year of the girl, do I need to get started?

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  7. Congrats! You are going to love having a girl! Although I don't have a boy, so I can't say for sure, but seriously, a girl is so much more fun! I'm sure even more fun after 3 boys, just as the differences I'm sure will be so much more distinct. My sister is the reverse. She had 3 girls in a row and in January had her first boy :)
    Anyways, congrats!!!

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  8. OMG YAY! YAY! YAY! Congratulations!!!

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  9. Congratulations! We kind of felt that way too...before the ultrasound we had picked out a lot of different names, but only one name really stuck and it was a boy name. So when the u/s tech said it was a boy, I don't think we were really surprised (even though we both cried a little!)

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  10. I'm more than happy for you......hooray!

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  11. how wonderful for your family. you've needed a girl to share your love for shoes. :) congrats!

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  12. you made me cry and remember my first ultrasound, it was memorizing to watch the heart flutter and the baby move.

    I am thrilled for you all, congrats again.

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  13. So happy! So excited for you and your family! You and Sheryl are two peas in a pod, huh?! Yipppeee!

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  14. Oh yay!!!! Congratulations! I can imagine how you're feeling. As the mom of only ONE boy, it took awhile for it to sink in that I'm having a girl baby, the *other* kind of baby, and quite frankly when I'm buying girl clothes it feels like I'm buying them for someone else. Our little girls will only be a few weeks apart... and I can't wait to find out what her name is. :)

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  15. Oohh, a little girl! I am so happy for you!!!

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  16. Congratulations. What fun it will be to have a girl.

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  17. Oh, now I'm DYING and I can't wait to not only meet her, but to know her NAME!! Ugh, it's gonna be a long 20 weeks (for me!) LOL.

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  18. Congrats! I had a little girl after having my two boys and, let me tell ya, it's fun!

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  19. A little pink in your all blue world. How great that will be for you to wear matching pink outfits with on holidays.
    Congrats to you and your family.
    Amy

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  20. CONGRATS!!! WOW that is wonderful! We just had our baby boy and he is doing great!

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  21. I am so excited that My daughter is going to experience having her Own daughter. What a special Mother's Day gift for you to get this news today. She will be protected by 3 strong brothers. Now I will be on pins and needles waiting to hear her name....

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  22. Oh Steph........ I'm so, so happy for you all :-)

    Love,
    Tricia F.

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  23. How wonderful & exciting! I bet you ARE walking on clouds. :) I have the same feelings you were talking about... just feeling like there was a girl inside... or girls... but we'll just have to wait a few more months to find out. Unless I get to impatient. ha!

    Congrats again!

    Brittany

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  24. *tears* yayyyyy! so happy for you Steph! Happy Mother's Day!

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  25. Awe!! Yeah, I am excited you get to experience a girl!

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  26. Congratulations! That is just too exciting. Time to go out and buy all the girly-girl stuff to counterbalance the male that's been dominant I'm sure.

    Plus, she must have been healthy and strong which is the best the news of all.

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  27. It is truly the most astounding, amazing, breathtaking miracle out there.

    Congrats, Steph.

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  28. Congrats!! We are having a girl, too! Most of the babies I know about are boys! That will be so fun for you!

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  29. oh you get it girl!!!! I can't speak for boys, but I've totally loved being a mom to little girls! Let the frenzy begin!!!!!

    Congrats on everything, especially what seams to be a healthy beginning to a little life.

    Can't wait to see (and read) what God has in store for your family!

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  30. Let there be pink!

    Congratulations to all!

    Sharon - Pinks & Blues

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  31. WOOHOOOO!!!!! Congratulations! Welcome to the world of pink! :-)

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  32. Congrats! I know you would have been happy with either, but this will be such a new experience for you!

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  33. Oh Steph!! I am so excited for you!!

    As a mom of 3 boys, and then a girl..I can tell you that 2 years later, I am still in awe. My daughter is such a joy and blessing.
    Hope you are feeling well.

    Blessings!

    Staci

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  34. Oh, now I'm all teary. This was such a beautiful post. Congratulations again! And um, yeah. If it's the year of the girl (which it DOES seem like everyone is having) maybe I should get going too. (jk)

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  35. gretchen from lifenutMay 09, 2008 11:21 AM

    Awwwwwwww, said in the sappiest, happiest way.

    Congratulations!

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  36. gretchen from lifenutMay 09, 2008 11:21 AM

    Awwwwwwww, said in the sappiest, happiest way.

    Congratulations!

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  37. gretchen from lifenutMay 09, 2008 11:21 AM

    Awwwwwwww, said in the sappiest, happiest way.

    Congratulations!

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  38. Yeah!!! I am so happy for you & your family,Congrats!!

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  39. Yeah!! The girls have it! We had 3 girls then one little boy - lots of mama's!

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  40. CONGRATULATIONS!!!! You look great too! perfect little belly!

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  41. CONGRATS STEPH!! Gotta love some pink added to all that blue!!! Pink yourself from head to toe... !!!!!!
    Best,
    Audrey

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  42. Wow! I'm so excited for you. I think you'll have so much fun planning and decorating for a girl...you may even update your sling? Or maybe not.:-) Congratulations.

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  43. As a mom to all girls, I can vouch for how wonderful and delicate and sweet they are. I love my girls. You will love yours.

    Ribbons and bows and pink and flowers. There is nothing quite so fun.

    Congratulations Steph!

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  44. As a mom to all girls, I can vouch for how wonderful and delicate and sweet they are. I love my girls. You will love yours.

    Ribbons and bows and pink and flowers. There is nothing quite so fun.

    Congratulations Steph!

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  45. Congratulations! A little girl! That's wonderful! :)

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  46. While the old "There's nothing like a bond between Mother and Son"is true, There is just something about the bond between Mother and Daughter as well. I have one of both and I feel truly blessed!

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  47. Congratulations on your girl after three boys... I KNEW it.

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  48. How fun! You will have such fun with a girl. Princesses, dresses, tiaras, hair bows, and PINK everywhere, oh my. :-)

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  49. CONGRATULATIONS! SO excited for you. Can't wait to hear her name and see her when she arrives!

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  50. awe, i teared up!

    You are in so much trouble! You thought boys were great! LOOK OUT SHOPPING HERE COMES STEPH!!

    seriously super excited for you!

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  51. Oh Steph! Congratulations. I'm so happy for you. I would have been happy for you if it was a nother boy too, but, yay! What a change it's going to be for you. And how awesome is it that she'll have three older brothers to protect her against anyone who dares mess with little sis.

    Wonderful news! Congratulations again!

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  52. congratulations! girls are so much fun! and i'm sure the change will be fun for your family. i've been reading your blog now and then for a while. you've been an inspiration for the babywearing thing. i love having my babies close to me, and i never knew there were so many people out there that did this. i can't wait to try out different slings when we can afford them! thanks for your informative blog! and congrats again!

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  53. I'm beyond happy for you, Steph. You have no idea how much having a daughter is going to change your entire household. Fun, fun, fun.

    Krissy and Andy took me with them for the ultrasounds for both my grandbabies, and with Avery, as soon as the doctor told me what I was seeing (think hamburger buns) it was as obvious as could be we were getting a baby girl.

    Oh, congratulations! I know how excited you are. :-)

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  54. Yay! I knew it! Congratulations, your boys will have a baby girl to spoil...

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  55. I thought so, too :) So happy for you!!

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  56. how very exciting!! i'm thrilled for you and your family. :)
    congratulations, mama. :)

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  57. So awesome!! Congrats Steph! Finally someone in your house to share your love affair with shoes! :)

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  58. Woohoo! Congrats on your baby girl. Little girls are so much fun and watching them with their big brother is the best. I can't wait to see her style!! I can't believe I guessed right on your little contest...I never get these things right.

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  59. Woohoo! Congrats on your baby girl. Little girls are so much fun and watching them with their big brother is the best. I can't wait to see her style!! I can't believe I guessed right on your little contest...I never get these things right.

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  60. The boys must be so excited! They will be awesome big brothers Congrats and I am truely happy for you and your husband!

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  61. Oh! Congratulations! I am so excited for you! 3 boys and a girl, perfect.

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  62. Yeah!! Congrats Steph!! I'm so happy for you!!

    Your post made me cry! It reminded me of when we found out last year of our little girl. The best thing about a daughter is the bond between mother and daughter. It's incredible.

    Again, congrats!

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  64. Oh! Congratulations! You are going to love having a little girl in your house!

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  65. congrats! girls are really lots of fun

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  66. Yay!!! I was "rooting" for a girl. Like I said in my "guess" comment, I have 3 older brothers. You're going to have so much fun with her! Congrats!!

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  67. Congratulations. You are in my prayers for a safe and successful delivery. Hugs.

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  68. Big time congratulations!!

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  69. Hi Steph,
    I decided to de-lurk because I just have to say "Congratulations!!" I'm so happy for you! My family is the exact opposite - I'm the oldest of four - two sisters and a baby brother (who's now 6'5"!) and man does he get spoiled! (He also gets mothered to death!)

    Enjoy your little girl! and again, Congratulations!!!

    Julie :o)

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  70. Congrats! I know what you mean about having a "feeling" because of the name, that is exactly how we were with Little.

    Have fun buying pink and purple and girly things.

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  71. Oh Steph, I just want to see you RIGHT this very moment so I can hug that beautiful belly and tell that little girl that I can't wait to meet her. This post made me cry and remember the day of our ultrasound where we got the same news. Especially since you know the name, the whole pregnancy, the way you interact with that baby has changed and I am just so excited for you guys. I love you so much.

    -Carrington

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  72. Yeah for you! And your world just became pink!!

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  73. I can't stop smiling reading this, so I would imagine your smiles times 100!!! (at least!) Reading this took me back to the confirmation we were finally having our little girl after all the years of waiting...I just couldn't have been happier. I am so stinkin' excited for you. Boys are totally awesome, but girls are so much fun in an entirely different way! Congratulations!!!!!!!!

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  74. Oh, I am so happy for you!! Girls are a blast- you are going to love it! I feel really lucky to have one of each...both special in their own way!! I know how amazed I was when they told me that Emily was a little girl- the best feeling in the world!

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  75. Congrats! That's so neat how you just knew. That's going to be one special little girl in a house full of boys!

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  76. Congratulations!!! Girls are so much fun (not that I have anything to compare them to, LOL) :)

    Better get used to seeing a lot of pink, though. ;)

    I'm so happy for you!

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  77. I KNEW IT!!!! Congrats, Steph! Can't wait to meet her! I am sure you are really tickled "pink."

    Blessings,
    Happi

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  78. :) yay.

    You get to buy PINK!!!

    SO happy for you.

    Enjoy your mother's day, love. xo.

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  79. What a great start to Mother's Day weekend! Having a girl after a boy is like starting all over! There's so much difference in mine, and I love her sooooo deeply! We connect & even though she's only 1, we talk about when she's a Mommy and when she learns to sew, etc. I love it!

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  80. I remember being in your shoes, just like it was yesterday (even though it was 4 years ago).

    There is nothing like having a daughter. Nothing.

    Congratulations! :)

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  81. Steph: I am so happy for ya'll! Somehow I knew it was a girl just from the pics I've see of you and the 'different glow' you have about you! It was a girl glow (instead of a boy glow)! Can't wait to see her and hold her! Also, I can't wait to see you, Jeff and the boys this coming up weekend! Yeah!
    Love ya'll, Aunt Diane

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  82. I just knew too!! i am so excited for you to experience having a daughter! Congrats!

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  83. I also cannot wait to hear her sweet name.

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  84. So exciting!! It's so much fun dressing a little girl!

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  85. How wonderful . . . congratulations!!

    With each of my pregnancies, I just "knew." I think most mothers do, deep down . . .

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  86. yay!! So lucky, and I'm so happy for you!

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  87. A GIRL... YAY!! I'm so happy for you and the family!! CONGRATS!! She's going to be beautiful and the boys are going to be great big brothers :)

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  88. I've been out of the loop for a couple of days, but am so excited to hear this news! :) I would've been excited even if it was a boy, but being that I have one girl and two boys, I feel like each mom should have a girl - there's just a certain bond...And then looking forward to later in life - the relationship that my mom and I have is amazing, and I think every mom should have that with a daughter! :) Congrats! So happy for you!

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  89. I can't believe you will finally have a girl! Get that little one some cutie shoes!

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  90. I am the 99th commenter! HOLY COW! I am so excited for you! What a beautiful post and I am sure this gal is going to be as beautiful as her mama!

    Love that belly shot on the previous post! You are just perfect!

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  91. I'm so late but I'm catching up, congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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  92. CONGRATS!! I knew you would copy me!! It's so much fun to have pink stuff after all the blue! I told my mom that I would not have anything blue anymore..lol. 6 years of blue was enough, allll pink here.

    Congrats again and enjoy the pinkness!

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