August 19, 2006

The Healer's Signature

It was about this time of year, a few years ago when I went to see a doctor for some allergy problems. On the way out of the doctor’s office, it was raining really hard outside.

I decided to run really fast to my van, in super-flat plastic flip-flops… which became little water skis sliding me clear across the parking lot and almost directly under my van.

All in a moment I felt: wet, embarrassed (looking to see if anyone was watching), and PAIN. There was a bone sticking out of my wrist. And NAUSEA. I’m gonna be sick.

It was broken- my right arm (and yes I am right handed.) I had to wear a cast for 8 weeks (at that time Noah was 2 and Carter was just 1… both kids still in diapers!)

This was very inconvenient for a stay-at-home mom. But I managed. Couldn’t wait to get that cast off (showers with a plastic bread bag over your arm everyday are just not what they are cracked up to be.)

When the cast finally came off, my arm was still weak. It wasn’t like I could just use it like before. It felt funny and awkward. The skin was different and there was still healing time even after the cast was off.

I guess as I was praying about how I’ve been feeling the past few days about Noah’s good news and all, this is what came to mind.

Things just feel weird now with Noah off the diet. It was so strict and something we were so accustomed to for over 2 ½ years. Now it should be exciting for him to try new things and eat whatever he wants, but it feels uncomfortable.

Maybe my heart is a little sore. I didn’t even realize it this whole time with the “diet” as the cast, protecting it.

Good thing is, it only took a short while to use my arm again like old times. I hardly even think about it! I’d hope to say the same about Noah & his diet. I have a feeling it will be harder to forget, as this experience has challenged and shaped our being, in a very positive way.

Should we even try to forget? It’s a wonderful reminder of His faithfulness and promises, and that miracles still happen today. I shouldn’t suppress a story that might bring hope to one person and strengthen faith in another.

Perhaps it should be a battle scar to proudly bear… interestingly enough, a definition I found of the word ‘scar’ is: a mark left by the healing of an injury.

A scar is there to show that healing has taken place... the Healer’s signature.

20 comments:

  1. You gave me chills! And a few tears. You are so strong. Noah is going to do so great. How is he liking "new" food?

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  2. What an amazing outlook, you're a strong mama!!!!!!!!

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  3. I love this perspective you have! What a fabulous and reflective post!

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  4. Reading your email made me think about my mom's emotions after my dad's cancer treatment completed. You would think there would be this exhale and everything would be fine. She felt like you: awkward!! It seemed like everything crashed at the end and she needed time to absorb it all.

    Time will heal!! :)

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  5. What a lovely way to see a scar. You're right, remembering the hard times in our life can be very good. They DO make us stronger.

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  6. Congratulations on getting through all of this and being so strong. I just read through a few of the posts that provided background on Noah's condition and I am so impressed by how you faced this situation with such grace, fortitude, and courage. Thank you for sharing your story!

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  7. Great post :) Loved your perspective on it :)

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  8. I love your description for a scar. We need to be reminded of God's healing in every area of our lives and that's a great visual.

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  9. Yay for Noah!! That is so awesome and incredible. I am thrilled for you all, that he will be starting school and be able to eat "normal" food with his friends.

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  10. Ohh you poor thing. Its nice to see positive people. Thankyou for the read.

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  11. As usual a beautiful post. I don't see you as "a poor thing" (re:kim's life comment) but a strong woman with a great perspective. Noah's struggles were a life changing experience and your family is different- is what it is because of it. I see no choice but to honor the scars, as you have chosen to do. They serve as a reminder of the what you've come through and inspiration of what's yet to come. I feel the same way about Xavier's early days, and have learned to embrace it.
    We love you!

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  12. Praise the Lord for being our Healer and answering prayers. What an awesome testimony your family has.

    I read the background story... is this what started one day after his immunizations? Your old post about vaccines is still rolling around in my head... Elijah turns one next week and I really need to make a good decision.

    Thanks for sharing your story!

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  13. You know, you may need some time to mourn all of this. It turned out all right in the end. But it must have been so hard as it was happening. And sometimes we don't let ourselves really feel everything at the time because we need to function and I know you needed to stay strong for your family. As you let it go you also have the opportunity now to deal with how some of it made you feel. I guess it is a scar.

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  14. What a wonderful perspective, how beautiful to look at scars that way. Thanks, I'm sure I'll need this viewpoint - I love how you are so positive!

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  15. This was a truly awesome post. Your analogy was so perfect. Like you said, I truly believe God gives us scars to remind us of His faithfulness. How wonderful that you are able to see it already -- when the wound is still a little fresh. I pray that you are able to finally feel comfortable in your new lifestyle. You are so reflective and so in tune with God, I am sure it will be sooner than you think.

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  16. What a great perspective!! I have yet to go back and read some of your posts to get caught up but I do planning on doing it.

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  17. I'm so happy for you. Sounds like you've had an incredibly hard road. Thanks to God that it may be getting a little easier. Your son is adorable!

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  18. What an amazing mama you are - how blessed your boys are to have you. Great, great perspective here.

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  19. Oh my you poor thing! I've never had a cast before, but I've had a few kids in one. My 5 y/o just got out of a bodycast!

    Thanks for sharing your story.

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